I let someone else's good news make me feel bad on Tuesday.
A friend of mine announced on his Fbook page that he and his wife's baby is due the first week in January.
Admittedly my VERY FIRST response was "That's so great!" I hit the like button before anyone else.
Then I started crying. I went to the bathroom and stood in a stall and said to myself, "what the hell am I crying about?!"
I couldn't stop crying but I forced myself to because I had a meeting to attend. I wiped my face but it was obvious I had been crying. I said I had a bad headache when asked if I were OK, which wasn't a lie: my head was hurting from trying so hard to not cry in front of these people.
Meeting ended, I went BACK to the bathroom and cried. Then I went back to my desk.
Finally, I left work early and went home, crying all the way (it's an 8 minute drive, thank goodness I didn't use public transpo that day!).
I got home and the screen door was locked so I lay against the door crying and knocking and Mr. SLS came to the door and asked "what happened? what's wrong?! are you hurt?!!!"
I cry/snot/short breath bursts blurt out that somebody was having a baby and it was due when our baby would have been due and then I ran upstairs and lay on the bed and cried into the duvet cover. He came up and rubbed my back and hugged me until I fell asleep.