"There are notes between notes, you know." -- Sarah Vaughan

Monday, April 25, 2011

Tiffany in Houston told me to blog so...

...Here I am!

I move back into my house on Saturday. I'm ready and not ready at the same time. I haven't packed a thing as I don't know where or how to start and when Mr. SLS tries to help me by putting stuff in boxes, I get all emotional about it, i.e. stop rushing me! stop pushing me out of the door! He told me I can put off moving if I want/need to, but I've declined that offer. It's time for me to go. It's time. And Saturday I will be gone.

It's funny that he and I have found this ... space where we can deal with each other and laugh and stuff. Friendship? I guess. I mean, we DID share a life together, and the infertility experience is ours and ours alone. And I can remember way more good times than bad ones, so there is that.

He finished the song he was writing for me. I haven't heard it yet. He says I have to come to a gig to hear it. He did tell me that it's not sad or blues-y, it's lively and upbeat, just like me.

But, I will say a year is a long time. Just as I couldn't see where I would be this year at this time last year, I can't see what the future holds for me either.

That said, I will keep looking ahead and pay close attention to the lessons I learn along the way.

Monday, April 18, 2011

It's my birthday, we gon' party like it's my birthday!

Sooooooooooo another year. The good Lord let me have one. And I am mighty grateful. As I prayed this morning I thanked my maker for getting me through last year. There were times when I was not sure I could get up, but I got up anyway. He -- and y'all and my friends and family -- carried me through. And here's what I learned: I might bend, but I don't break. Damn that.

And on that note, I leave you with this Yolanda Adams song that ALWAYSSSSSSS gets me through to the other side: