Y'all know when I decide to do something I don't let my feet get heavy, right?
After I posted earlier about some of the reasons I hadn't filed for divorce yet, I decided to walk my self on down the street to the courthouse and file the papers. I don't need to wait for Mr. SLS to do that.
I texted him to send me his SS# (cause I always transpose two numbers in it when I try to do it from memory) and that I would go ahead and file the papers rat now. He said, OK, sent me that and his drivers license number, and then he transferred money into my account to pay the filing fee. That ninja is rhet to be done with me. LOL!
So, as of 2:15 p.m. today, Friday, Aug. 12, the divorce papers are filed and the court date is set. Apparently it's pretty straightforward when you don't have babies, money and stuff to argue over.
As I walked down the street to the courthouse, I had to admit to myself that another reason I hadn't filed (beyond those I listed earlier) was I wanted him to divorce ME. I didn't like the idea of some legal file somewhere saying that I quit my marriage. Cause I didn't. HE did. I remained faithful and steadfast to the vows that I made to him in front of our friends, family and loved ones.
But waiting for him to file was stupid of me because, it's no skin off his back if we ever get divorced. He's dickin' around with whomever whenever anyway. And he doesn't want another wife. In fact, I'm surprised he brought it up. If I cared more, I'd probe to see why but...whatever.
I, on the other hand, want to be married. I want the marriage I thought THIS one was going to be -- love, honor, respect, friendship, laughter, intimacy, companionship -- all that 'til death do us part. And I know in my heart I will have it. Maybe not next week or next month or next year, but I will have it. Because, despite everything, I still believe in love and commitment.
However, I can't have any of that if I'm still legally married to Mr. SLS.
OK, enough of this for now. But know that just as I gave you blow-by-blows of my infertility experience and my fibroid surgery and my marriage dissolving, you are going to get a lot of "the road to divorce" posts.
Thanks for reading/listening, y'all.